A question of mortality

This may seem like a morbid topic but isn't this what life is all about? I have been diagnosed with an ailment. Should I feel sorry for myself? Should I be asking why me? Should I be saying 'what have I done to deserve this?' I have wished it to go away, I have lived in a state of denial and further I have prayed and pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me and even been prayed for but it has not gone (as at the time of writing this). Does this mean there is no God? Does this mean that I have sinned or does it mean that I lack faith? Am I not a proper Christian because I have not been healed? Or is God simply ignoring me and does not care? Has He forgotten me?

There are many questions, however, or I would also like to know 'why not me?'. What makes me so special that I should be above all this? The Psalmist (Psalm 8:4) said '...what is man that you are mindful of him?, the son of man that you care for him?' Surely I am nothing. Rather than look at my problem perhaps I should look at the size of my God. why should I run from prayer to prayer? Why should I have to go from one healing service to another? I have already had multiple consultations. It all came to a head as members of my family have asked me to travel so that I can attend a prayer session before coming back to have an operation that I am due to have.

Do you really want to know what I think?

I think 'NO'! and indeed I can be quite stubborn but here is my real reason why I cannot submit myself to that or such a lifestlye.

I remember years back when I was so hungry for God that I would go anywhere to seek Him. I remember attending a conference for a week and noticing a man there who seemed as hungry as me for the Word. Everyday that week he would bring an older lady in a wheelchair with him in hope that she would be healed. It seemed that everyone else was getting healed and despite everyone being hyped up in faith and gathering around her in prayer...I cannot forget the look on the man's face on the last night of the gathering.

{Challenge: Does God heal?}

Yes of course He does. Jesus performed many miracles and healed people everywhere He went.

'fear not it seems that we fear illness because primarily it affects the quality of our life. It can inconvenience us and our loved ones. It can fill us with worry and moreover it reminds us how fragile human life is and our mortality.

What does it mean to be healed?

King Hezekiah when tol

{Challenge: As christians should we fear death?} Paul said that to live